The flapping of a single butterfly’s wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. – Ian Stewart – The Mathematics of Chaos or Chaos Theory. 
Life is full of Puzzles, Surprises, Questions etc., for which often we seek answers. My story is not uncommon. My ambition to become a movie director grew up with me as I grew. To attain the ambition I made my mind to face any obstacles. But I didn’t knew that Life had different options for me. Even when I stepped out of my school in a determination to take actual steps to realize my ambition and when my financial insecurity cast burden on my day to day family life. I felt my choice of pursuing a career in Multimedia will help me to travel my ambitious destination. But I still remember the day when I was left stranded in streets by my friends with whom I started a small graphics design company because of a small mis-understanding. I still remember the day where due to unavoidable situations I have to close my video post-production studio. But above all this there is one main area which jolted my life. After ten years of stepping out of my school to realize my ambition I got a chance to work as a Lecturer/Sr.Faculty in animation, in a reputed college in Kerala. After a year because of the inner politics and certain kind of groupism I got to quit the job. Then it was my third attempt to start an animation company with few of my dedicative students to realize my dreams with my dream project ie., “India’s First Open Movie” Project – Project Angelo. The fact which I was not aware was my team was influenced negatively from outer forces of old existent opposite group with the help of an insider in the team itself. They blacklisted me with the help of gossips and rumors. They played pranks with the help of technological development without knowing the sequences. They did all in an un-ethical way like posting worse about me and my team in the social media web, hacking company and personal web accounts etc., When the rumors spread it disabled the actual potential of working team members. I had to close the company, when my investors pulled back the investments. This was the third failure and that too happened after twelve years after I set out for my ambition. I was left stranded once again, depressed deeply with hell a lot of questions in my mind. This affected me mentally and physically. A stroke which made my left side weak, disabled the power of my walk and to serious even I was in coma for about two weeks in ICU. Nobody had an Idea whether I will come back or not. You know why All this happened? This was my question. I used to teach morals and ethics to my students. That was an outcome of my inner quest of “The purpose of Living” through many philosophies. I deeply followed and follow the visions of many philosophies, philosphers and visionary leaders in the process of Making-Self or Man-Making. Zen stories and meaning behind them I used to teach my students. “Long hour Un-necessary Lectures” , my students used to comment them. This was from the same youngsters who felt a positive vibration from my motivational speech in my classes in the first six months of my job. My interest in human psychology and self-development helped me motivate my students to attain their dreams. No one will regret it from their heart. But things changed as time passed. I remember my HOD said about my students “First Six Months they Praised You, Second Six Months they hated You and the Last Six Months they Cursed You. Within three six months all the Praise changed to Curse” This statement was laid before me a week clearly before my stroke. My deep depression and physical health issues made me drop my mind. A year passed in pain and agony with torturing questions in my mind. Among those were:
- What wrong I did?
- What is my vision in my life?
- Was my goal setting wrong?
- Aren’t ethical values for individual development important for one human?
- Why for teaching that I was Blackmarked?
- Are people not really True to their Self or the Supreme Self – GOD?
- Is that all an End?
- Why I have to suffer this pain and agony when others who are responsible is enjoying their life right at this moment?
..and many more. What I felt at that time was “Everything was useless. Not even a single human helped realize my vision”. A year of sleeplessdays passed by, when I used to meditate, talk with my eternal father and spend my time reading books; Crouching and Lying in Bed thats all I can do at the maximum. I got the answers from the Eternal Supreme Being. My connection with the Nature and cosmic energy solved many riddles. What I got is “Don’t you feel you already have What you need. The knowledge. The knowledge of Life through Experiences. Spread it. Rewind your life. That was what your success and also the failure. Success is you acquired that skill. Failure is you didn’t chose the right persons. Now go find the ones who need it hardly” When I thought everything has ended, I really found a beginning. I realized for every ending there will be a beginning. This is how “Alpha at Omega” started. The main visions of Alpha at Omega are
- To help people to restart their life for success at any point despite of their losses
- To help Youngsters realize their vision and motivate them to achieve their dreams
- To make people understand that philosophies are merely not theories, they contribute to practical life in greater measures
- To make people prosper with health and wealth applying the underlying principles of Nature and by balancing Economical, Technical, Ethical and Individual development to attain that prosperity.
- To gather support from people to help make the “Educational System”, a man making one
- To help people to self solve their problems with the hidden answers in Nature
In addition to this, training for a group or individuals at any kind of organization which helps in self development and in turn to the society also will be conducted More about me will be found in my blog http://mythoughtsarehazy.blogspot.com Now I am walking on my path, again “Hour Long un-necessary Lectures” for who feel them as Necessary. I am going to use this medium for achieving these visions. As a reminder, I have not closed completely the dream of Making Movie. I have restarted my works for the animation movie project I initialized. “The Project Angelo” – this time in a more unique way.